deeper.

salam.

it's winter time and i miss wearing boots.

it's only 12 noon in dublin.


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never-ending

salam.
the avoca trip really worn me out.i spent most of the time today sleeping.syir has just anchored  but i decided to let him do whatever he wanted to do,in other words i just lack of energy even to have a chat with him and some discussions between us has tire me more.but whatever it is,i love him anyway.

the official result has just been released.im glad i got the title finally.the journey was excruciating yet worthwhile.besides graduation,there are a couple of things that i look forward to.

5-11 mei:nice and monaco
14-20 mei:oslo and berlin
24 mei:arrival of mak,kakak and abg.will meet them in heathrow
24-27 mei:london
27 mei-2 june:venice,florence and rome
5-8 june:paris
9 june:malaysia.

for the wonderful life,Alhamdulillah.segala pujian hanya untukNYA.

.Alhamdulillah.

salam.

provisional result for final exam of medicine was out yesterday.
thank you Allah,the most gracious and most merciful.couldn't be more happier.
:)

when i was told i passed,the first person that i called is mak.she sounded happy.actually this is for her.for always be my pillar of strength,who never tired of giving me  her unconditional love,prayers and supports throughout my 6 years abroad being a medical student.she told me the whole family was praying hard for my success.God bless them for that.i couldn't thank them enough.

and to mr fiance,look how far we've come.thank you for always being there and may God bless you for your patience.


now,dah jdi penganggur tetap.huhu

congrats UCD class 2010.we finally made it doctors! :D

.ticking.

salam.

it's not even eleven yet,but my body being signaled by the great mastermind--->the brain is dragging 'ms jeem' to bed already.i hate this.i should be reading something instead of blogging.but if i don't blog,i sleep. which one is worse?God help!

on a different note,sunday is just a perfect day!talk to mak for hours and got buzzed by syir from philippine on his way to bintulu.sehari-dua lagi sampai la tu ke bintulu.yey-yey!

:D

.semangat.

salam.

hello.
my name is azimah.
i'm a final year medical student.
thank you for helping us in the exam.
as you know,this is part of my exam and this exam is the most important exam in my life as it's going to determine my future career.
i hope u will help me as best as u can and give your full cooperation  in the exam.

i can start memorising these lines from now on.
a friend of mine once said,"the last push always the hardest!".i couldn't agree more.

10 days to go.

wish me luck people!

.lectures.

salam.

it feels unfamiliar somehow to attend 'formal' lectures back.lecture days were long gone(it was 2 and a half year ago during my pre-clinical years).bukan nya tiada lansung kuliah dlm clinical years nie cuma byk lae buat practical dr pergi kuliah.but from tomorrow onwards,i'm going to lectures again.time to put on jeans and snickers again as well.me love!tp 4 lectures in a day?pengsan!tetiba berkobar pulak.haha.hopefully tak hangat2 tahi ayam la kan.so this will be my final 4 weeks of lectures as a medical student insyaAllah(kalau i takyah repeat.ya Allah....mntalah i pass my final,ameen).how time flies yeah?i'm nearly done.heheh.UCDians 2010,skeeet jeeee laeeeee :))))

owh ya,smlm tunang i dh boleh msg2 thru fb dr nagasaki,nippon.bila tgok nama dia dok komen2 kat fb i mmg terubat lah rindu sket!hehe.so kepada buah hati org kapal sekalian,selain msg2 thru celcom,maxis,digi etc yg akn charge rm2 setiap sms dr luar negara,diorang bleh activate facebook mobile and msg to your facebook inbox with just rm1 per week!(i agk xpercaya but i dh clarify dgn dia.nti i confirm balik) tp still,rate itu jauh lebih murah.so boleh la save duit sket nk bina masjid kan?keskes.what u need is a facebook account yow!(which i'm sure most of u guys ada)hehe.ada org dh pesan suruh i rajin update facebook ni.i will dear=)

3hb april nie dh 2 bulan la dia sign off.another 4 months to go.yeah,i boleh,i boleh!
tetiba rasa nk plan percutian extravaganza bila dia balik.incik syir,kemana kita?hehe.

bukit bendera.a week after i landed from dublin.well-planned!i suka(padahal kat penang je pun.ahaks!)

rightO!i nk titun.nite2!

pre-exam rambling.

salam.

first of all,this entry not gonna be a nice one.
so,bear with me.

i have to 2 cases to present to my tutor.one was done this afternoon.another one tomorrow.for the 1st one,adaka patut suruh fill in the marks sendri.ye kawan2 di malaysia,studying abroad nie selalu buat we all "shok" sendiri.so klau buat tak berapa bagus pun,nak markah penuh bubuhla"i did excellent!".tp takkan la nak tick mcm tu depan tutor?haha.

another thing i just realized is my exam gonna be on raya haji.ni double malang hokey.dah la exam,raya haji pulak tu.sikit pun tak kool.org raya,kami dok dupdapdupdap nak OSCe(kira oral exam la).so beware sesiapa yg nak studi oversea nie,things like this is inevitable.selalu raya tak penah lae time exam,kelas tu biasa la kan.huhu.terkejut bonda i kat kg bila cakap exam susah on 27th nov.sedih btul la.tp i akn makesure i pass this exam sbb nk berbaloi kan whatever shit ni.teringat tahun bila ntah pagi raya haji,org pakai smart2 baju melayu bagai,me and the geng sebok tarik beg nak tgu bus ke airport nak pi switzerland.dah la bus stop depan masjid.kantoi.haha.lupa trus raya haji bila time tu.

skrg down btul la.rasa kurang kasih syg btul.family jauh,boyfriend lagi la.sekarang sorang2,and time exam nie la nk demam,batuk, sakit tekak segala.mak knows better sebab anak dia selalu akn sakit b4 exam.klau kat malaysia dulu,bila nak exam mak and akak mst dtg lawat sbb is either i'm sick or just to boost my spirit up.bawak pi mkn sedap2 and bg kata peransang yang takda org lain boleh bg.semangat btul nk exam.so siapa kata study kat malaysia bosan or study oversea ni best.if di malaysia,semua within reach.seb baik kawan2 baik2 belaka.tp semua org pun sebok nak exam kan.very understandable!i hope things get better once the exam finish.

oklah,i tanak melalut lagi.org kata complaining nie tak membantu unless we do something to improve things.wish me luck ye poeple.i just want to pass.

the balloons,i love.

salam

hye people.mind the frequent entries for the last couple of days.i think i'm having manic attack of blogging.ha.ha.(now jeem is using all the psychiatric jargon that she could think of just to make u guys puzzle?!bad jeem.bad jeem)

manic attack ni klau dalam bahasa sakit mentalnya adalah apabila seseorang tu hyper/terlalu bersemangat yang keterlaluan.sbg contoh:dia akn buat segala kerja dlm satu hari tanpa perlu tidur,bercakap tanpa henti dan bercerita tentang keupayaan luarbiasa beliau seperti boleh membina kapal terbang atau pun ayat yang paling senang adalah seperti beliau berada di puncak dunia(i'm on top of the world!semuanya boleh!)selalunya keadaan ini akn berselang seli dengan episod kemurungan atau hypomania(bersemangat tinggi tetapi tidak seteruk manic)

ok back to today's topic.yesterday i got a chance to watch UP.so happy.i'd been wanting to watch this movie for ages.i still remember i was all excited in malaysia during summer for the movie premier.ended up the first day of its release was a day before puasa.i kept pestering my sister to go and watch with me but suddenly my mum wanted to tag along and of course that night tak boleh since she would be in the mosque.so i have to cancel the plan to respect the holy month of ramdhan.well,no regret because i watched already and as expected,any movie from disney-pixar is brilliant as always!=)i think ellie and mr fredricksen is a shw-eeeet couple.and to grow old together with our loved ones is everyone's dream.when i was a kiddo,i always dreamt of my house attached to thousands of colorful balloons and just floating away exactly like in the movie.like seriously.usually cartoons are for kids(duh,mmgla kan)tp this one i think suits adults better as it contained moral values that is lacking in most movies nowadays.


another movie that i managed to watch in between weeks of psychiatry was AN EDUCATION.this movie is simple.based on novel by nick hornby(i've read one of his,but half way.maybe i was quite young at that time)it tells a story of this brilliant and talented secondary school girl who's dreaming of attending oxford to read english(language).her father is potrayed as a strict but caring father figure who wants the best for his daughter.she's doing well at school and well-liked by her peers.but the sun doesn't always shine.she was lured into another life by this one playboy who showered her with luxuries and love.this is when the importance of education and the power of love and keseronokan dan kekayaan sementara all mixed up.to know what happen to this girl?kena la tgok.i love the setting of the movie,the accent they speak and 50-60's era=) but on top of that,this movie gave me insights on how VERY IMPORTANT education is and now i knew why my late father was veryyyyy strict when it comes to studies!this movie is indeed an eye-opener not only to teenagers but to all women generally.


offnote:aura membuat essay terbawak-bawak ke blog,hence the lengthy one this time.

insight.

salam

owh senangnya dalam hati.essay ku sudah siap.*let's sing together girls*hehe

hari ini so many things happened.as usual,there are good and bad things.for the good ones,i could never thank God enough for those.and for the bad ones,there's lotz to learn from them.sometimes we feel happy for no reason.and the same thing goes to sadness.(*owh apalah yang i merepek ni kan*hehe).

having learn psychiatry at the moment, even unstable emotion has its remedies.so if you're feeling low(in terms of mood),no energy,lost appetite,losing weight and slowly losing interest in what u've been enjoying before(such as hobbies;ps3,wii,watching tv,golf,fishing,sex?yes,sex!),cannot sleep(tetiba jd early riser or u spend hours golek-golek atas katil) please seek help.this is not about stress anymore.it's DEPRESSION!(owh don't be scared by the capital letters word which i shouldn't caps lock in the first place=P).this is just a phase of mental illness that shouldn't be creeping on you for the rest of your life.go seek help.pi clinic.forget the stigma ttg penyakit gila whatthe crap.this is about you,love yourself!go tell the doctor what u feel,since when this thing happen and the difficulties u'r facing in your daily life.iA,the doctor will tell you what to do.always remember that depression is just a phase of life that has its end.it's not a life-long condition(it will be if u ignore treatment).so friends and foes,i know there are lotz of people who are having depression out there.please..please..come forward.tell your friend.tell your spouse.tell your parents.it's not your fault to be depressed.


dun let depression eat you slowly inside.

and say NO to commit suicide(GOD forbid!)

done with kerja kebajikan.u know when u learn something and u don't spread it around,it becomes a burden.so now i can give a *b......i.....g* sigh=)

next paragraph is mushi-mushi if u nk termuntah baca sila angkat kaki(i mean it).

~haritu incik ichigo kata dia ermmm........rindu i.
~i balas i rindu nak gaduh-gaduh manja la kan ngan dia.(gosh i lupa la the last time we gaduh.lama gila lah and the funny thing is lepas berdamai mst rsa 100x lae syg.haha)
~yesterday we fought and today we made peace.
~owh sangat tidak cool and hati berdarah gaduh nie rupanya.(see,dh lama smp lupa rsa dia)
~and next time klau dia ckp the same thing,i nk jwb mee too sahaja.no more jwpn merepek luar sedar.
~moral of the story:be careful for what u'r wishing for.

cerita tamat.

owh i lupa cerita baru di penang.
kat penang dah ada hard rock cafe+hotel.
lambatnya i baru tau.
kat ipoh ada ke? *senyum jahat* (=

offnote:tak sabar nak tgu 16hb.i think i wanna buy myself a bunch or roses,to celebrate.heeee....

.recap.

salam.

last week had been hectic.not only i went down the country again for another peripheral rotation,me and dearest friends also had a good time dressing up for halloweeeeen!quick bits of what happened last week:

navan,co meath.
i'm calling this place bandar koboi.seriously it's small and still developing although it takes only about an hour from dublin by bus.at 9am,the shops still closed and it was quiet and very calm.no traffic and less people walking around at first i thought i was walking on public holiday.my BnB(bed and breakfast=some sort of accomodations that available in ireland besides hostel and hotel.price is in between hotel and hostel.inclusive of breakfast hence the name)is so nice.bilik dia mcm nak honeymoon.katil dia besar dan tinggi benaq kena lompat sket untuk duduk.it reminds me of my late grandma's bed.ala syle dulu2 tu.minus the tiang.hehe.

the bed


carpeted WC


tempat layan blues.haha.




tp bilik sebegitu tidak menggembirakan hati sgt sbb the location alahai jauh gila.45mins jalan dr hospital.pastu cuaca buruk dan sejuk.pastu kena stopped dgn van yang ala2 nak kidnap dan rape masa otw balik BnB dr clinic.huwaaaa.mmg trauma igt2 balik.balik BnB trus masuk selimut sbb takut ya amat.unpleasant memories altogether.i hope this is my last peripheral rotation.is getting sicker to always have to go down the country.honestly i tak suka.enough said.

halloween.
first time ever i was involved in halloween.selalu tgok je irish pakai costumes pelik2.this yr,one of my housemates suggested we dress up as whatever we could think of and gather at smithfield(jay's and fido's).the costumes were all either borrowed or owned by ourselves.so we don't spend.well if yang spend pun less than 10euro.but what matter the most is everyone really put efforts in making halloween a blast and the best part is everyone was shocked seeing each other with their costumes on.and by looking at the end result.......mmg semua org buat all-out.impressive!unfortunately i don't have enough pictures to prove my words sbb most pics in my digi cam turned out blurred.sila check my facebook if anyone interested lah.ini gambar yang kureng blur.


on the way to smithfield.pit stop:temple bar to watch halloween parade.ended up we yang parade.we felt like celebrities due to non-stop camera flashes and never-ending sounds of shutter(shutter bunyi eh?erk?!) my beloved housemates(the sweet gyspy,the scary joker,the kawaii japanese student and an exotic geisha)with darth vader and owh-the-light-saber!:P




the black clan.



i love this picture the most.it made me laugh=D

i think my hands are numb.it's chill to the bone even with the heater on and i'm not joking!finally the most awaiting winter is here.

a quickie.

salam.

ok,i ada approximately 10 mins b4 10.50 malam.nothing important.it just that i have to prepare slides for my presentation on thursday.tapi hati nie kuat nak berblog.boleh ke macam tu?apa-apa je lah labu....

today is the second day i'm doing paediatrics.when i went up to the wards,hati kecil i cakap....chummelnya budak-budak nie.w'pun sakit dan merengek-rengek,they are still adorable.macam mana tk cair tgok.hurm...now i want one..or maybe 2 or 3 for myself.huahuahua.bila tgok si kecik tu senyum and waved me goodbye...sayu je nak tinggalkan ward.pernah sekali,i termenangis bila tgok dia senyum dan boleh ketawa tapi dari segi pergerakan,dia hanya mampu golek-golek kiri dan kanan tapi tak boleh meniarap pun walaupun dah 3 tahun.i tahan air mata jgn jatuh sebab i tanak jdi lemah sbb nanti macam mana i nak ubatkan mereka nie.okay-okay tutup cerita.i dah kena amek tisu~sobbing~

i miss mr seaman.sobs.rasa lama tak jumpa.the last time i heard from him,the ship tgh rolling.ni bahasa org kapal kot sbb i honestly have no idea rolling tu apa b4(dlm kepala igt lagu limb bizkit je,huahuahua..rolling rolling rolling).rolling ini adalah keadaan di mana kapal kena goncang dengan big waves.betulke?macam taufan la gitu.dia kata rasa macam naik lif tak stop-stop.or macam kena goncang dalam gelas.ngeri.tambah-tambah bulan posa nie...i rasa kesian la.tsk tsk tsk.dengan peningnya,dengan nak on duty lagi.kalaupun i jauh dr family,i still duduk kat darat yang tanahnya kejap.w'pun tadak bazar ramadhan,masih ada take-aways and fast foods yg halal.ini adalah alasan beliau untuk say NO bila i merengek mahu ikut ke laut nanti.kadang-kadang i rasa terharu how some people work so hard for a living.kalau duty time berbuka/sahur maka makannya pun merata-rata lah.kat enggine room ke...sedeh la dengar camni.hurm...so to entertain him onboard,i selalu update him with the latest EPL punya games.i'm happy when he's happy knowing his fave team has won the matches and after quite sometimes being an unpaid reporter,i'm quite familiar with the players and the club myself(smp berangan nak pi wembley tgok live match,haha)..cuma u jgn lah memadukan i dengan bola u tu ye.i tak sanggup jd the second one.sobs.*nie dah jd entry jiwang karat dan memuji bf sendri,maaf*=)

okielah.puasa baik2 semua.nanti dah nak smpai ke 10 mlm terakhir.jom tingkatkan ibadah,kuatkan iman ok~

salam.

it's sadden me that the holiday is coming to an end eventually.worse when i'm having super great time fasting and feasting my tummy with malays,indian and chinese delicacies that seriously irresistable.but to tell you the truth,i haven't gone to any bazaar ramadhan yet.ini adalah kejayaan besar okay.i'm truly satisfied with what we had for berbuka so far which was all homecooked!i started to dislike bazar ramadhan since most of the kueh and lauk-pauk weren't as good as they used to be and some were even spoilt or not edible at all.but i do like bazar ramadhan near nilai,N9.they have this super long bazar ramadhan and the foods were marvellous too.it was last year tho.hopefully it stays the same this year.

incik ichigo has reminded me that i only have 4 days left in malaysia.i said 3.i made a mistake by telling him i'll be flying off to dublin on saturday nite but it's actually 5th sept at 0025hrs.so klau ikut bahasa melayu jumaat malam la.haiyark.he's going to anchor at hakata probably on thursday nite and lets hope i'm not on the plane to k.l at that time.

part of me is excited to go back and resume my student life again after such a long break but another part of me dare not to face new challenges in studies as doing paediatric next is far from easy.hurm...whatever it is,i need to prioritize my responsibility and i got to do what i'm suppose to do,aight?

offnote,to hajar,dzariff and liana....thanx for the short and sweet mini-reunion that we had just now.being given the oppurtunity to get to know u all is one of the most wonderful moments in my life.w'pun setelah 12 tahun berlalu,saya still rasa kita adalah kanak-kanak 11 tahun yang suka menyakat dan bertengkar tapi malas membuat homework dan belajar.haha.

long lasting hope.

salam.

tried to call mak but to no avail.i guess she's attending another wedding reception.owh yes,it's my cousin's today.minah,if you're reading this,I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN MARRIED LIFE.it's gonna be a bit tough at first but i'm sure u guys will pull through.hehe.dah kawen pun hang naa.ish how time flies and u're a wifey now.congratulations babe!

movie buffs alert:calling all X-men fans,please make time by dumping all ur busyness in the bin and go watch X-men origins,wolverine at your nearest cinema.and please dun buy pirated dvd.it's worth watching on the big screen.cyclop serious kacak dr zaman remaja haha and gambit mmg cool lah.

incik ichigo's happee-yippee time is up.he's gonna sign on another misc fleet tomorrow.i somehow knew the happiness is gonna be shortlasted.however,there's another hope/dream waiting to be realised soon.yang penting sabar.hope the sea will take a good care of you and co-operate more in terms of less rolling and more maxis/celcom coverage please!and after his normal 7months onboard we both are having time off from work and studies(not fully hols for me but whateve,saya nk bercuti jugak) at the same time.finally.pertama kali dalam sejarah nie.hikhikhik.he hates it when i full-heartedly believe that this gonna be real this time and start making plans because seeing how devastated i was before due to change of schedule by his company has broken his heart to pieces.so whenever i lay out the plans for future,dia akan tukaq topic lain.sounds cruel but i know it's for my own good.he's a realistic,i'm on the other hand a full time daydreamer.haha.

and last but not least,another exam approaching soon.owh it's less than 2 weeks.mamps!okielah.talk to ya soon.happee weekend folks!

.mimpi indah.

salam.

hari ini buffday tina.2 days ago buffday nadia.happy buffday.hope u girls have a wonderful year ahead.

hari ini hujan dr pagi saaaampai petang.horror.lepas makan kenyang,semua org basah kuyup.dpt lah sharing-sharing payung.erat persahabatan kata org.hehe.

hari ini kena naik train 6.50 ptg.saya benci train ini.kerana apa?pukul 8 malam baru smp dublin dr mullingar.hari-hari travel sejam pergi dan sejam balik.mcm penang-ipoh-penang hari-hari selama seminggu.badan pun penat.otak sepuluh kali penat.tapi sebab doktor saya yang baik hati belanja makan dan kenyangkan dengan gosip,saya maafkan.

hari ini saya dpt tahu taiko besar ryan air tu patient GP saya.alangkah bangganya sayadia!

hari ini kalau boleh saya mahu sangat berada di malaysia.meramaikan majlis.tapi apakan daya.

mungkin hari ini saya patut tidur awal?

selamat malam dublin.

.fluid challenge.

salam.

exams dtg lagi.this is among the most dreadful times of the year.somehow i kinda used to it already.but i'm hoping i were immuned to the exams not to panic or have anxiety attack a few days before exams which i'm not.~sigh~as years passed by,things get more difficult.when i was in my pre-clinical years,last minute studies were possible.forget about books till a week before exam and be a nerd.yes,i passed.now,don't even think of doing the same thing.it's like digging my own grave.huuuu..wayang pun dh lama tak tengok.sobs.

okie dokie,nk continue study.to all res year UCD,ALL THE BEST!asia for asia.haha.

p/s:the mini-blackboard is the reminder in the kitchen.no wasting time in the kitchen i suppose.haha

the warmer.

salam.

heee...=))))).

incik chigo is in town!eventually i managed to persuade him to come over and have a good time with yours truly.ahaks.his flight touched down around 10.10a.m thursday morning.i was a bit shy to see him after 7months of not meeting each other but after a few words with him,things feel like normal again..but walking side by side is still a bit awkward for me.rasa mcm mimpi.usually i walked alone or with friends kan....heheh.

the first day,i brought him to my regular fast food restaurant where he had a doner kebab and i had taco fries.yep,kebab is what he's been craving for since he left uk.yesterday,he had to wait in the guys' place till i finish my rotation and alhamdulillah,it was easy to get signed off from AnE.yesterday also is hari menonton wayang.friday the 13th.i slept like 10 mins in the middle of the story.tak takut sgt pun cita tu.2/10 compared to 9/10 for the hills have eyes!tapi since nk tgok dgn dia,kena la mengalah tgok cita thriller atau hantu.takdak punya dia nk layan cita romance,drama suma-suma nih.takpa,today will be his turn to mengalah tgok he's not into you wif me!

to you:thank you for making my dream came true.i hope u'll enjoy ur three weeks here and i'll do my best to entertain you although u kena tgal kat rumah the guys when i'm off to hospital.hehe.

next week is the starting week of surgery rotation.the appetizer this time is plastic reconstruction.i tak kesah apa-apa pun.as long as i can get home by lunch time.heheh.tapi,tapi,on monday ada lecture at 7.30 a.m.tak boleh awai lagi kah????huwaaa.

okies..nk semayang jap.have a good day everyone!

a change.

salam.

welcome to my new place.still empty but i'll accessorize it if i have time.hope u have a nice time coming here=)

well,nak tulis apa yerk.let's talk about skool.next week im gonna start doing anaesthetic.most probably most of the time will be spent in operation theatre(OT).it's more relax in there compared to the wards.hopefully i'll finish by afternoon and go hooomeee after that.cool.talking about skool and coolness nie,i like one of the ads in flyfm.it's about a guy who asked his gf to skip skool and instead hang out with him.the gf refused to and the idiotic bf asked her why.then she replied in a raised voice"because school's COOL and u're NOT!Haa..hamek kau!what a good phrase tok lelaki yang tak paham bahasa.

erm...11 more days.tak sabaqnya!!=))))))))