rewards

salam.

the joy of working is u get to see your previously bedbound patients are back on their feet again beaming from ear to ear making their first steps all over again .isn't it a wonder?

and the joy of being loved is you know he/she will return into your arms again no matter how long or how far  the person may go..i think this is simply as sweet as a candy(yes,u may puke.haha)



he's going offshore again.we both are okay with it.we had more than enough time together.it won't get any nicer by going against the nature of his work right?hehe.it's time and with full-heartedly support,i wish him well and smooth-sailing journeys ahead.




dear fiance,

please find me asap once you sign-off.i'll make sure i have a beautiful wedding gown to wear by the time u're back  :)

introductory entry.

salam.

owh dear,i knew this would happen.i was too busy tagging people asses i have no time to even read whatmore write my own blog.well,i'm still breathing fyi.not in repiratory distress to be exact(i was a few days back but let us forget the past,will ya?)hehe.

so how's my new life treating me?erm...it was sucks big time for the past 14 days.i got scolded by my superiors depending on how many times i presented case in clinic.even when i'm writing patients' charts or while walking during rounds  my ears tend to get this nasty way of im-being nice-but-at-the-same-time-i-hate-the-way-u-work kinda of advice.i don't mind being scolded for my mistakes but what pissed me off the most is when there are people who acted like they are damn good in everything just because they mastered the hands-on work after they've been doing the same things for the past erm..a year and a half kot and yet their brain seemed so empty it echoes when u drop a needle in it.come on....if you train a 10 year old kid to do blood takings and branulla settings everyday,i bet that kid can do it with one eye close after a year++ of training.so nothing xtraordinary with that.please la.u are nothing but stupid by being arrogant just because u started earlier than me and managed to finish ward works so effortlessly but when people asked you how to get ABSI(ankle-brachial systolic index) and what the normal level u have to ask people next to you for the answer.u are just plain stupid!if u tak tahu jawab tak mengapa but when u buat2 tahu and pandang org sebelah mata that what makes ur level even lower than my juniors in uni.

ok.enough bitching.i hate being one of the bad guys in movie u know..haha.

i 'm currently still adjusting to my new life to be honest and owh boy,it's so hard in the beginning..but a friend of mine once told me that each day that passes will make things better.i expect no miracle but i really hope what she said is right.

dear God,i depend on you solely to guide me thru and please make me stronger to face whatever challenges that awaits for me in future for my path is still bleak and only on you i put my confidence that one day everything will turn out right and so i will be just fine in my chosen path.

nawaitu lilla hitaa'la.

something to be grateful for

salam.

alhamdulillah,induction was over yesterday.it's a relief actually because we had to strain our ears for nearly 10 hours per day untuk dengar ceramah during the induction!i think 6x per day meals is not gud enough to bribe us for that 10 hours torture we had endured,seriously.haha.besides listening to loads of ceramah,i also managed to make some new friends there.all the best with your postings guys!may God ease every path we take :)

waaahhh..tak sgka this monday dah kerja.and sedar tak sedar the year nearly draws its curtain down.can u believe it's already nov?rasa mcm mgu lepas bru attend my graduation day :P.tuptuptup nti dh masuk januari dan skrg bila masa free yg byk dulu mcm akn vanish soon baru nk rasa gelabah wedding prep tak buat lagi.hmmm.....*rasa nak masuk fantasy zone and dissappear sekejap*

oklah.actually i rasa bad mood harini.rasa panas semacam.nk kate hot flush,i masih muda lah kan.haha.so i guess that's it for today.take care and see you soon.iA.

unemployed.

salam.

now i started to feel bored just staying at home.i need to work.i want my mind to start working again.to leave it dormant for too long is no good right.i hope the long holiday i'm having now is enough so that i won't feel any regrets when i start working soon.i need to socialise again.get some fresh air,be in a new environment and meet some new faces.on top of that this long holiday starts to annoy everyone around me.like how i slept till mid-day that bugged my mum so much,and how i harrassed my fiance with so many texts day and night like celcom tu company i yang punya.haha.so there goes.at least work will deviate my attention from sleeping,going to malls or asking my sister to bring her baby sister jln2 and thinking about syir obsessively.haha.luckily my desire to shop has ceased.thank God.finally ,my prayer has been answered!

i think i'm ready to embrace another phase of life.no matter how much i love my student life,i have to move on.forward.

p/s:i think i'm going to miss syir terribly when i start working and esp when he start sailing but i will always remember  that abscence makes heart grow fonder.dont u agree?

remaining.

salam.

it has been 3 days since mak left us for umrah.the house is a bit gloomy and uncheerful.if not i would be hearing her sewing machine running and  making the noisy sound that started usually after she finished her Al-Quran classes every morning.when i came back from sending her off last friday,my eyes caught the very unusual sight.all the sewing machines(the true sewing machines(the new and old ones,both still work!),mesin jahit tepi(i dunno how to translate this)) are nicely folded and covered.terus rasa mcm nak menangis.eventhough she's away during the first 5 days of my first hari raya after 6 years abroad,i don't really mind(i do at first,i was mad at her in fact!).as a daughter,what makes her happy,makes me happy too.seeing her very excited to go to a place she had longed for ,for years enough to tell me that there's nothing i should be mad at.semoga kepergian mak ke mekah kali nie dpt mengubat kerinduan mak sejak mak balik untuk pertama kali dulu.be safe mother and my prayers always be with you.

of another note,i started my applications for job already.it's better to do it now than after raya.takut rushing nanti.semoga Allah permudahkan.rasa in denial pulak nk kerja.seronok betul menganggur sebenarnya-minus the miskin part la.haha.

my one and only picture wearing whitecoat during  medical school.comot.sbb tu tanak amek gmbr time blajar byk2.nie pun last day of school before final exams.seb baik syir first kenal i thru middle person.klau tak,takmau kot dia kat i.haha.sebenarnya,i dah rindu belajar.sobsob.