never ending.

salam.

life is a never-ending learning process.wether we like it or not,we are full-time students throughout our lives.anyway,i just finished my 6 weeks of electives.well,supposedly it ends this friday but i got all the necessary forms signed off yesterday.so i went to hospital this morning to bid goodbyes and clerked a few last patients in PGH as a student.iA when i come back to PGH the next time i might be the HO(tolong doakan saya) on-duty.=)

another interesting point to tell is i could drive on my own now.hehe.nie mmg paling lame but bear with me,i've been waiting too long for this moment to happen.haha.it feels like i just pass my driving test padahal dh lesen full pun saya nie.cuma jrg bawak.mak said now i can buy my own car if i want to.the problem is,where to get the money lah?

and dear fiance,if u were here,i would have asked you to cross the bridge to have have some fun with me since i'm off from hosp already but since u'r far away,i save it in my voicebox sahaja.sobs.

eh ok la...i have to fetch my sis from work.her chauffeur la now.

till then.

=)

words

salam.

semasa perbualan di meja makan sewaktu makan mlm,saya bersama mak and akak ada berbincang tentang bahana mengumpat atau mengata org.susah betul rasanya nak buang perbuatan nie.kadang-kadang ia berlaku di luar sedar.sedap-sedap bercakap,oppppsss...termengata orang.masa saya kerja part-time dulu,ada org atasan berkata,dalam dunia ni,baik kita mengata org dulu sbb somehow org akn mengata kita wether we like it or not.this statement is easily agreeable.hurm....tapi on second thought,yang salah tetap tetap salah.tak kisah lah w'pun realiti nya tetap pahit.dalam situasi saya yang mentah waktu itu..sgt pun mengangguk da mengiya setuju walau dalam hati berat kepada membangkang sahaja kenyataan tu.sbb masa kecik pergi fardhu ain ustazah cerita nabi dulu kalaupun yahudi dan nasrani membaling najis kepada baginda,tidak pernah sekalipun baginda membalas perbuatan tu dengan yg jahat juga.sampai hari ini saya menyesal sbb masa belajar di matrik dulu ada sepotong ayat yang ditampal oleh senior di dinding.'berkata benarlah walaupun pahit'.semoga saya lebih kuat mempertahankan kebenaran di masa akan datang.

and today i had a bad moment which i think my friendship couldn't be saved anymore.i don't know what went wrong but it hurts me so much that i just want to stop trying.when u just walked away without a word,i knew it's time for me to move on.thank you friend.i wish u well.

on a different note,perhaps a cheerful one,i received a first email from the sea.org kata ia lah racun.ia lah penawar.

saya pilih penawar.

:-)

as the distance grows apart..

salam.

harini cuaca terang benderang.panas terik diluar sana.selalunya hujung minggu begini,kalau tidak di penang,mungkin di ipoh ataupun di tempat lain.tapi minggu ni memerap di dalam bilik sahaja.teruk betul kesedihan kali ini.dulu-dulu tak pernah rasa begini..bila tgok gambar...laee sedih.smlm tanya syir,klau sedih nak buat apa?TIDO katanya.hahahah.

syir dah selamat smp atas kapal kat bintulu nun.harini i decided not to go anywhere sbb harini dan esok sahaja boleh sms and kol sblum kapal bergerak.lepas tu hanya email sahaja penghubung setia.sometimes i wonder how i survived those days without any means of communication for about 2 weeks for years.yg boleh email hari-hari ni pun baru sahaja,i think it started from the last ship.alhamdulillah.harap-harap kapten rajin la update the system.and he agreed to board the same ship as the previous one.reason behind it?one of it will be short gap in btween 2 ports.around 6-7 days dah bleh sms or calling-calling.i like..i like.tapi sian dia,lepas nie everyday is monday and chances nak bgun lmbt mmg close to 10% je kot.huhu.but being his other half,i have to support him.be his backbone where possible.and don't worry the next time he signs off,i'll be right here waiting for him; ) dan boleh raya bersama-sama jugaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak!


gambar sebelum i jd tunang dia.i paksa him pose jugak sbb i nak dok dlm ray ban baru dia.hihihi.tp cara dia mcm volunteer je.muaheheh.i'm definately going to miss this guy,the syir of my life..

thank you,love.

salam.

for more than a month i was living on cloud nine.
everything was bright and dandy.
everything was perfect,in our own way.
the laughter and tears i shed were all worth it.
if i were given a chance to choose again or to start anew,i would still go for what i have chosen before.
it's truly priceless.
the moments,the happiness and the real joy,owh boy i couldnt ask for more.

when the reality knocks me hard,i've learnt before not to stumble.
but to remain strong on the base of trust and loyalty.
i know i'll cry.
i know i'll break down.
i'm sure one of those days going to be very tough.
but dear self,keep ur feet tight to the ground as once the ship drop its anchor into the sea floor,you'll fly again to the bluest sky.



credit to azmil

sayu pula tgok gambar ni.just a week after our engagement ceremony.
a lot of things i still haven't done for him and yet he's off sailing again .

saya doa Tuhan lindungi anda.
be back safely.promise me.

sobsobsob.

upgrading.

salam.



fakta
gambar dia atas adalah saya dan apa yg dijari itulah faktanya.menurut incik ichigo tiada byk perbezaan antara status lama dan baru.bg saya,ia hanyalah untuk mengelakkan saya disunting org lain dan untuk menyenangkan plan ke alam perkahwinana.whatever it is,i'm happy.afterall,this is a good thing,isn't it?

:-)

separa fakta
hampir kesemua rakan dan sahabat baik saya ada di sisi.adalah menjadi impian saya dr dulu to have my great buddies during the ceremony and they were there.ada a few yg couldn't make it but i'm sure they have solid reason why.tetapi having mostly around really made my day.it's a dream came true.

myth
tangkap gambar bersama tunang sendiri adalah tidak baik masa hari pertunangan?huhu.mcm tidak.tetapi saya hormat setiap kepercayaan dan other people's preferance.cuma kesian saya pada incik ichigo sungguh tebal.huhu.

plan
lepas nie nak panggil incik ichigo as syir.i love the name since the day i've first said it.rasa berbunga say his name that way.dan nk belanja mak and kakak yang bertungkus lumus mengelola majlis.tidak terjangkau the effort they put on this.love both of you to bits.

till then,take care and salam.

rasa.

salam.

rasa nak pengsan penat.

rasa nak lompat pun ada.

rasa takut,come and go.

rasa nervous?kadang-kadang.

rasa best?ahaks.

rasa gundah gulana semua ada.

tapi paling best antara semua adalah rasa tidak sabar.

=)

mixed up.

salam.

things are super duper hectic.despite the ups and downs,i'm still in one piece alhamdulillah.now time is so precious even sleep feels like a waste of time.

24 jan cuti-cuti malaysia lagi.
tak sabar.

i wished i could stop myself dr menyusahkan byk org esp mak,kakak dan incik ichigo.
to them,thank you for loving me for me.
i couldn't ask for more.huhu.