Monday, March 30, 2009

as usual,it sucks big time.


exams were horrid.bel.malas nk comment.if i treat the patients the way i answered those papers,they die in no stay free consultations unless u don't mind the silly errors.

and let's pray hard i pass.

arghhh..windunya everyone at home.lambatnya nk balik malaysia.serious lama lagi.after 2 more modules.luckily i got few big events coming up.i just lurrrveee april.wohooO!

i wonder where are the extra font accessories gone?ala..yg boley buat tulisan kecik,besar tu.and i couldn't even color the words like last time.they just gone missing.haihh.

oklah.eyes are involuntarily refuse to open.i need sleep.nope,i deprived of sleep.


Monday, March 23, 2009

.fluid challenge.


exams dtg lagi.this is among the most dreadful times of the year.somehow i kinda used to it already.but i'm hoping i were immuned to the exams not to panic or have anxiety attack a few days before exams which i'm not.~sigh~as years passed by,things get more difficult.when i was in my pre-clinical years,last minute studies were possible.forget about books till a week before exam and be a nerd.yes,i,don't even think of doing the same's like digging my own grave.huuuu..wayang pun dh lama tak tengok.sobs.

okie dokie,nk continue all res year UCD,ALL THE BEST!asia for asia.haha.

p/s:the mini-blackboard is the reminder in the wasting time in the kitchen i suppose.haha

Saturday, March 21, 2009

stockholm syndrome-epi.finale (delayed part t.w.o)


exam is just around the corner.plenty to read and do.however pada saat ini jugak the urge to blog is at it's to be fair,i would like to fulfill what i've promised before,the continuation of stockholm syndrome.although he's in malaysia already i still nak smbg tulih gak.takpa la no.hehe.okies this time we talk about vasa museum.this is a place where in my opinion every tourist should go.i was stunned by the huge viking ship that was discovered i think in 1952 and evacuated 10 years later.saya ni buta sket lah kan about vikings ni but since incik ichigo ada,he told me everything from a-z and indirectly i had a free tour guide on what vikings do,how the lived and so on.let's have a look:

ni miniature version of the ship.based on research,the ship once looked like this.exact shape and colours.

below are pictures taken while strolling around stockholm city.

above are famous twin buildings in the old town.

ahh..miss the place,miss the company too=P
bila-bila kita pi tempat lain pulak key.
okies..that's all.pheww..finally siap gak entry pasal stockholm nie.
have a good weekends everyone=)

Wednesday, March 18, 2009



siapa nak belikan satay malam-malam lagi?siapa nak belikan milo 2kg untuk nak bawak ke dublin taun depan?siapa nak masak gulai kepala ikan yang special tu lagi?siapa nk pegang fishing rods byk2 yang berat tu?siapa nk drive bila nak bercuti-cuti malaysia?siapa nak membebel bila org bangun lambat?siapa nak marah sebab buat kerja last minute?siapa nak peluk bila di airport?siapa nak sediakan bajunya supaya di tadah air mata smp basah sebelum nk balik ireland tetiap tahun?siapa yang akan cakap "setiap langkah gmah ada doa pak disitu".bagitahu saya mana org itu?saya tidak lagi mendengar kata-katanya.saya tidak lagi merasa hangat pelukannya.saya hilang doa-doanya.

it's been a year already.the day i cried so hard.the day i lost someone.tiada di mata tetapi selamanya di in peace father.i miss you terribly.

until now i cried myself to sleep whenever i think about him.

tiada pengganti.


lap c.hole.


surgery is treating me badly this week.beside seeing anus(es) and pelbagai bukaan lain,i'm also expected to inspect what's inside stoma bags.semiformed or formed?tak paham lae?s.h.i.t lah.cecair ke pepejal?that's what i got on my 1st day in colorectal.sapa kata jadik medical student or doktor ni high-class,kerja kelas pertama?bulls.h.i.t!after i ended a round of potpetpotpet with incik ichigo(the same rythm as the complains about urology,gynaecology and breast endocrine dulu),he asked me one good Q.yg depan ke yang belakang lagik interesting?pffffttttt!and owh,another 2 days on checking people's ass.esok outpatient clinic.worst!jari apa nk guna?lupa la.

feel like going to holland again bermandi bunga tulip*berangan*.i think someone has reached the highest limit putting up with this daydreamer.nak wat's free.what you need are a bit of creativity and imagination to start with=P.but haih...mmg tak bgus berangan lebey-lebey nie.

Sunday, March 15, 2009



it's depressing how problem can occur at the wrong time and u are far away to even lend ur ears to listen.when i asked back about the problem,it was either solved or they already forgot about it.sedey nya i'm the most useless and hopeless creature on those i temporarily ignored,i still love you.sorry for not being there when u need me the most.i hate being me,the clumsy and ignorant me.i need to be a better me.

the worst at the mo is,i think i'm stressed out with the exam.depression is like the worst enemy i could seriously.huuu....even the sound of the alarm clock gave me palpitations it really wrong to sleep at this point of time knowing i have zillions to read?but sleep is necessity.everyone needs sleep.owh....

let's stop talking about something that further increase my hart rate.hurrmm..i really enjoy studying in least there are few natural jokers that never failed to crack jokes.=P they just simply gifted in making people laugh.

owh lupa nk cerita,on one fine day,on the way to the ward,i was called to do something.since i were in a rush i had to refuse.while on my way out of the hospital,i was called again for the second time.i didn't mind at first but on second thought,looking at the nature of the action and the increasing no of people watching, i think i better pass to someone else.luckily there's a friend who agreed to help me pedalled and much to everyone's amusement,he's making smoothie at the same time.*clap *clap *clap!i'm actually kagum with his slumberness(is there such a word like this?).he's the man.hehe.berkat kekuatan syameq,i got a cup of free smoothie before we left.yeay!!

that's the spirit!

he's enjoying his time...=D

a short conversation afterward:
me:sempoi ah hang..bestkan pedal?
him:best ah.*sambil senyum
me:sedap arr ayaq nie.sbb hang pedal kot....*sambil menikmati smoothie freee
him:sbb aku kentut kot tdik.
me:!@$%^^&&*!!!! *agak nk muntah ijau di situ.cess!(seb baik dia ngah minum gak.klau tak confirm saya percaya)

ok.itu aja.heheh.
take care=)

Sunday, March 8, 2009

welcome to the life where we live.


conversation with a friend last night has opened my eyes on so many things.we talked about many things from the good old days to politic and religion.while talking i realized all the things i know is just on the surface.i have no urge whatsoever to go deeper on certain matter.this is bad.knowing something but have no effort at all to do research or at least making sure the things i know are exactly provenly right!owh dear,where's my old self?the one who wanted to know it all or MUST know it all.where is the inquisitive me who read every newspapers sold by mamak stall(owh yes,masa zaman cerah,i bought setiap newspaper readable to me,utusan,the star,metro,berita harian..and kakak usually brought back NST from her office).i even compared each issue and start telling my mum this newspaper was telling lies based on what i've read in the others.with current politic and economic situation back home,i think i cannot afford to be ignorance anymore.perhaps the attitude of lepas tangan in people like me who makes the situation worse.we always think that what we do is nothing or too small to be counted but we forget all the big things started with the small ones.kita menjadi kanak-kanak sebelum dewasa.tumbuhan bermula dari biji benih sebelum menjadi pokok berakar tunjang.

"Few will have the greatness to bend history,but each of us can work to change a small portion of events,and in total of all those acts will be written the history of this generation".

Robert F Kennedy

dan jgn sekali-kali kita lupa that setiap perkara baik yang kita lakukan eventhough sebesar biji sawi adalah mulia pada tuhan.

on a small notes,i attended clinic on friday after nearly 3 weeks berparttyyyy.ahaks.when i was standing in the middle of the clinic,i was wondering why every patient has their own weird top that,most of them are either having casts,braces or on crutches.*pening and*
owh daku lupa.that was fracture clinic rupanya.3 weeks buat saya lupa segalanya.haiishhh!

well...i need,opppsss i MUST go back to's hard to get back on track but insyaAllah boleh=)

have a nice week people.and dun forget to have isn't that bad after all.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

take me with you.


pic by hadi ahmad.

You make it real

There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on it gets hard to breathe
All my faith has gone you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
Well I'm not sure of my priorities
I've lost site of where I'm meant to be
And like holy water washing over me

You make it real for me
And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of hurricanes and uncertainty
But I can find the words
You teach my heart to speak

You make it real for me
And i'm running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

Everybody talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
And you shine in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn

You make it real for me
And i'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

last 3 weeks were wonderful.i wish it could be longer,but we have other responsibilities.i thank GOD for making it possible,make it real.he's probably at the schiphol airport right now,with rubik's cube in his hands while waiting for the transit flight.i wish you a safe journey home.u know i'm always there in the safest place in your heart as long as u want me to.and don't be lonely.we have each other,always,forever,iA.


Tuesday, March 3, 2009

the fivers.


kadang-kadang saya sgt amaze dengan creativity org menamakan tags.hehe.contohnya seperti ini.cik azie tagged me ages ago.baru sekarang nak buat.sorry ye cik dietician.lambat nau nk wat tag kamu=)

5 Characteristics of your dream guy/girl:
1)baik,meaning he knows why he was born.understood?
2)nakal sket-sket
3)tak ckap byk dan selalunya humble la org tak ckp byk ni kan.
4)PENYABAR(sbb he has to put up a lot wif me!!!!)
5)good-looking sket-sket.haha.ini optional ja.

5 Characteristics that you have never like in a guy/girl
1)tak jujur.
2)malas mandi
5)i seriously have issues wif lelaki yang cakap kasar and pukul this:be GENTLEMAN!

5 feelings that you have when you're out with the one you admire:
2)gelabah tak tentu hala
3)nk balik umah cecepat
4)kdg-kdg sedeh sbb saya je admire org tu.dia bo-layan je.huhu.sobs.
5)rasa tak best pun i hate admiring people.
*dh lama tak admire these happened such a long time ago,when i have no one in here(smbil tepuk2 kat jantung ni ha)=)

5 places that you want to travel with your loved one
1)mak nak travel ireland and this is the priority.
2)akak tringin nk mai europe gak.and she adores aussie.these are in the list as well.
3)incik ichigo nk pi mana eh?aussie gak boleh combine wif no 2.
3)yours truly tringin sgt nak pi jepun and when i have enuff money,i'll bring all the loved ones along.
4)backpacking around thailand-cambodia-vietnam-indon.
5)ke tanah suci Mekah wif mak,akak and him.the most important place among all.

5 special things that you would give to your loved one:
1)what they want.
2)same as no.1
3)same wif no.2
4)same wif no.3
5)same wif no.4

5 songs that you will sing to your partner
1)anak itik tok weeeee
2)gosh....i rarely sang songs to him.but if he bares wif me,i nk nyanyi lagu when u'r gone by that he knows how i feel when he's away for a long time.
3)sorry i seriously couldn't cont this Q.maybe u can tell me what songs u wanna hear the most,my beloved partner?provided bukan ghetto by akon.itu suruh ur hp nyanyi key.

5 lucky people to be tagged next:
5 people who think they love me.hehehe.

stockholm syndrome-epi.finale part o.n.e


just to wrap up the wonderful trip.try not to write a long essay since i'm in the middle of a putting pics is easy enuff not to involve much of my brain functions yang sediakala serabut nie..hehe.

while waiting for ferry to go to another island.

on the ferry.behind is a star cruise-like penang,there is only one back and forth the island but in here berderet-deret.geram tgok.tapi $$$$ mst byk la kan.

smp senget-senget kepala amek gambaq! comment=P


the famous viking line

incik ichigo geram je takleh main.sorry awak,kita pi time winter.rollercoaster licin.huhu..

do you see the building with the unique rooftop?that's vasa museum where they placed the discovered viking ship


oii,i didn't realize we took so many photos.i thought in one entry i could finish uploading all.hurm...can i continue some other time?bole la..bole kan?,i'll bring u guys to one of these places.

nti sambung key.


Sunday, March 1, 2009

stockholm syndrome.epi 3 (money is not everything)


hello everyone.we're safely home=)home sweet matter how good another place is,nothing feels like home.penat sudah tentu.nk kata jet lag tipulah sgt(time difference = an hour ahead from dublin) tapi mengapa asek mengantuk dr smp tdi?we touched down around quater to 12 at noon.then headed straight home.both of us were exhausted.

the flight was at half ten in the morning.since the city of stockholm is about 80 mins from the airport,we have to leave hostel around 6.15am on foot to the bus terminal to take 7am airport coach to skavsta we were walking there was a taxi at the traffic light who honked at us.we raised our hands as a sign that we were fine walking.the taxi continously honking us asking us to just jump in the turned out that the taxi driver is a muslim from algeria and he actually gave us a free lift to the bus terminal.we got in the taxi and by looking at our panic stricken faces,he knew that we afraid he would charge us for the ride(dah la kami tgal 150kronor je=1.50euro).but later he told us he's just helping his brother and sister is ISLAM because he pitied us walking in cold weather.he mentioned money is not everything.dia siap bwk to the closest gate to the airport coach.before we left,he just asked for one thing,to send him dua'.we will.definately.

today incik ichigo is soooo kind to cook for yours first he told me to cook at home as he's tired to go out again.then at the city centre to change bus,he said"we mkn luaq je la.sian awak nk masak"."tapi saya nak mkn nasik"i answered.pastu kena jln jauh.then we decided to go home and cook the easiest meal like fried rice.balik2,i think he was so starving rebus 2 packets of maggi mee,one for me and one for him.and later this afternoon,dia goreng nasik goreng jugak for might be a simple dinner but it meant a lot to me.maybe sbb saya kata nk mkn nasik jugak.heeee......=)))))thanx awak.

okies.itu je for today.jumpa esok-esok=)