Tuesday, November 30, 2010

introductory entry.


owh dear,i knew this would happen.i was too busy tagging people asses i have no time to even read whatmore write my own blog.well,i'm still breathing fyi.not in repiratory distress to be exact(i was a few days back but let us forget the past,will ya?)hehe.

so how's my new life treating me?erm...it was sucks big time for the past 14 days.i got scolded by my superiors depending on how many times i presented case in clinic.even when i'm writing patients' charts or while walking during rounds  my ears tend to get this nasty way of im-being nice-but-at-the-same-time-i-hate-the-way-u-work kinda of advice.i don't mind being scolded for my mistakes but what pissed me off the most is when there are people who acted like they are damn good in everything just because they mastered the hands-on work after they've been doing the same things for the past erm..a year and a half kot and yet their brain seemed so empty it echoes when u drop a needle in it.come on....if you train a 10 year old kid to do blood takings and branulla settings everyday,i bet that kid can do it with one eye close after a year++ of training.so nothing xtraordinary with that.please la.u are nothing but stupid by being arrogant just because u started earlier than me and managed to finish ward works so effortlessly but when people asked you how to get ABSI(ankle-brachial systolic index) and what the normal level u have to ask people next to you for the answer.u are just plain stupid!if u tak tahu jawab tak mengapa but when u buat2 tahu and pandang org sebelah mata that what makes ur level even lower than my juniors in uni.

ok.enough bitching.i hate being one of the bad guys in movie u know..haha.

i 'm currently still adjusting to my new life to be honest and owh boy,it's so hard in the beginning..but a friend of mine once told me that each day that passes will make things better.i expect no miracle but i really hope what she said is right.

dear God,i depend on you solely to guide me thru and please make me stronger to face whatever challenges that awaits for me in future for my path is still bleak and only on you i put my confidence that one day everything will turn out right and so i will be just fine in my chosen path.

nawaitu lilla hitaa'la.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

something to be grateful for


alhamdulillah,induction was over yesterday.it's a relief actually because we had to strain our ears for nearly 10 hours per day untuk dengar ceramah during the induction!i think 6x per day meals is not gud enough to bribe us for that 10 hours torture we had endured,seriously.haha.besides listening to loads of ceramah,i also managed to make some new friends there.all the best with your postings guys!may God ease every path we take :)

waaahhh..tak sgka this monday dah kerja.and sedar tak sedar the year nearly draws its curtain down.can u believe it's already nov?rasa mcm mgu lepas bru attend my graduation day :P.tuptuptup nti dh masuk januari dan skrg bila masa free yg byk dulu mcm akn vanish soon baru nk rasa gelabah wedding prep tak buat lagi.hmmm.....*rasa nak masuk fantasy zone and dissappear sekejap*

oklah.actually i rasa bad mood harini.rasa panas semacam.nk kate hot flush,i masih muda lah kan.haha.so i guess that's it for today.take care and see you soon.iA.

Friday, November 5, 2010

always a silver lining.


i igt i nk tulis ni on monday but since i tak tahu keadaan i mcm mana comes monday nti..i decided to just write it now.i got a call for induction this monday and finally i boleh pergi tanpa apa-apa halangan lagi.it's gonna be on monday till friday.i hope the activities are gong to be exciting(well not to expect much since induction means loads of ceramah!).i dunno how many times i said this to syir but i'm really not in the mood of packing.let it be last minute this time.i wont die of not having enough clothes to wear or toiletteries to use,would i?:P

once induction starts,i immediately have to think about working already because i only have weekend to prepare before i register with the  head of department in any given hospital.so this monday is induction,next monday is working time!honestly i'm scared yet thrilled to become a real doctor.the word 'real' there means bigger responsibilities.tapi i akn selalu igt dalam kerja mst kena ikhlas dan iAllah Allah akn mempermudahkan semua.

dulu masa bru-bru grad,i cakap dlm hati i nak bercuti smp syir sign-off and sign-on kembali.but i didn't mean it.ye lah,klau nk tgu syir naik balik mmg berbulan2 lah i jobless.tp nampaknya Allah kabulkan permintaan kecil i tu(so next time becareful of what u're wishing for).nak kata mnyesal tak la,cuma sian family kena tanggung i yg tak bekerja ni.hehe.so skrg both of us pun nk start kerja balik.bila nk bid him goodbye tdi i cam sgt sedih.ntah2 yg tadi tu last kitorang jmpa.klau dia kena panggil sign-on time i induksi mmg that's it!6bulan lagi la kot baru akn jumpa dia lagi.rasa nk menangis je dlm kereta tp tu la..bila terlalu sedih nk menangis pun tak boleh.

so dear self,
Allah akn permudahkan segala dan menyayangi org-org yg sabar :)

p/s:smlm first time i nampak muka kecewa dia and my heart broke.rasa nk cakap je ngan dia jgn sedih dan kecewa sbb i akn ada dgn dia smp mati,iAllah.